at first, i was just watching it for the scenes of new york, but somehow i found that i've just blazed through the final season of "sex in the city". and YES, i cried at the end. and YES, that's why i haven't blogged. so - in the literary style of the the protagonist, "i couldn't help but
wonder ...does everything that goes around, come around? and did i
leave my heart in new york city?" even with all the changes you know must happen, it can feel that way.
it wasn't so much a place, a city, but a time. when we all had 30k annual salaries, tiny apartments, ate ramen, worked to much, drank too much, loved too much, and felt right in the center of life and on the side of some kind of rightness you feel in your gut. maybe it's called, being 10 years younger. whatever it was, what made it really special was having friends to blab to about our walks of shame, our career dreams, what we wanted from our boyfriends and ourselves. everything was imbued with a different meaning when you knew someone else would really enjoy hearing about your date or day from hell over a latte in a (then) smoky cafe
.
all this reflecting was brought on after i got an amazing present from audrey today - the original chelsea girl. but no, it wasn't a very dirty martini at cafeteria or a yummy tocca candle, but monet, dali, kahlo and van gogh as finger puppets to teach my baby about painting. suitably apt since she's a well-read art history major, now working at the getty in los angeles. yet, incredibly surreal, to think how much has changed since those snowy new york walks around the west village, and hot fiip-floppy days strolling among drag queens and tranny whores along christopher street after popping into gourmet garage for feta and 5 types of olives. audrey isn't even in new york anymore, joyce is opening up a bakery in brooklyn, kim has moved to london, friends are having babies, getting married, and i live in china for crying out loud.
when you look back at your youth, could you ever have imagined you'd be where you are? and maybe that surprise is a good thing, that we, and life, aren't predictable. unless, of course, you had imagined your baby would one day have claude monet in a headlock.