calvin's new nightly ritual: looking at his spreadsheet and excitedly pointing "look how many days until we meet him!". brushing his teeth, he'll think over which book to read to him, and before he begins, he'll tap my tummy like it's a mic and say, "hello? it's dad!" and i feel squirms and kicks of recognition. since calvin is so busy lately, story time has easily become my favorite time of the day. the top of calvin's head resting on my tummy, i listen to him imitate voices and act parts in the hopes the little guy will be amused. i'm probably the most disappointed of all when the story ends and it's time for to close our eyes for bed.
i've been getting a lot bigger (we've built him with ice-cream, we joke sometimes). i can definitely feel his legs and feet when he's pushing with them at the top part of my stomach. when i showed calvin by touching the top of my belly, he said i was tickling him! that also means it's getting harder for me to sleep (and walk, and move) but since friday was my last day at work, i've been able to take little catnaps if i don't have a lunch date, art class, or too many errands to run. trying to enjoy this time, and not stress out about fitting the grandmas into our tiny place, what i'm going to do professionally after he makes his debut, or who he'll fall madly for, and will he/she like us?
calvin's been great trying to help me however he can, as usual with his extraordinary cooking, and i've been forbidden to do certain activities (he knows my penchant for rearranging furniture). he even bought me a portable dvd player last week, which is like a little pet that i lug around with me, and so vittorio de sica and henri-georges cluzot keep me company when i can't fall back asleep after the upteeth pee break. how well doth this man know me.
one wierd thing too - i'm now a weepy mess. i've been on this high since the beginning, and really, haven't experienced any of the typical symptoms of pregnancy. he's been amazingly easy on me, and a tough little guy considering the pollution and daily stress i probably put him through living here, flying all over the place, and the swirly taxicabs. but somehow, it hit me last week - bam! the waterworks. first it was just this unsteady/anxious feeling about the future, but then it became crying because something fell on the floor.
we've met some amazing couples with kids out here, eugenia & bennet, mae-ling & alan, introduced to us by our friends arthur and jessica. they've really helped us see how we can handle being parents in shanghai, encouraged us, and given us lots of great reading and all-around support. i've also started hanging out with sylvie's french-vietnamese friend, josephine, who is 6 months pregnant. we have guilt-free ice cream fests and go to the fabric market with her driver, which has been so nice to chat about having our first child. venturing out into mommy land.
this morning colleen and dirk stopped by with max before their trip to
guiling. a chubby, delicious, smiling max who reached out for me to hold him when
they were at the apartment, i think because he can tell how much i
love him. i can't believe that one day (soon!) we'll be like them, parents
to this adorable, amazing little person. if i love max and sean so much, i can't imagine how much i'm going to love this little guy. i've been charmed by the little boys we've met here in shanghai too. but i have a feeling i know who will be my favorite!